welcome back

Wow!!! I can't believe it's been over a year since I have blogged. I feel horrible I didn't keep up with Caleb and his developments as a baby. Looking back it's always fun to reread what you write...I never keep a diary but maybe I can keep up w/ blogging.

I think i'm going to blog a little bit differently and not directly point it on how my family is doing or how my kids are doing. Yeah I might mention them but many people have facebook and can keep up w/ them on there. I enjoy facebook and enjoy keeping up w/ lost friends and seeing how people are doing and love to put up status' but can never put up everything I want to write.
This blog is mainly about how I am feeling and what I have done in my day and this blog is going to keep me accountable on my journey of my weightloss and help me to stay motivated b/c if I know I have to post, I'm going to do it (well hopefully). I've been kind of nervous about wanting to blog my journey and thought a lot about it but I'm going to do it b/c if not I will fail as I have failed millions of times before trying to stick w/ a diet and fail miserably as I have no motivation and no encouragement so I'm hoping this will keep me accountable and people will want to see how the progress is coming along and keep me accountable. It's going to be hard I know. It's not going to be a walk in the park but I hate how I look and have a very low self esteem and I know if I can shed some pounds I will feel sooo much better about myself and will be happy. I know mainly I need to change my eating habits. I exercise but I eat what I want and when I want and that's probably why I have stayed the same weight since December of 2009. I just can't get the scale to go down b/c of my eating habits.

So, today October 18th, 2010 I started my new journey b/c I REALLY want to do this. I'm doing this for me. My husband Ashley asked me last friday if I wanted to go on a diet w/ him starting monday and I was absolutely shocked.. I said, absolutely. He said I don't know how long i'll last, probably until monday afternoon and I have no idea how he is doing..lol..I don't count on him actually sticking it out but I hope so. I would love to have a partner. :) If you know my husband, he LOVES to eat. :)

Today I have made the goal to lose 15 lbs by Thanksgiving. I am not sure if that is too high for me but I think I can do that.. I will continue and make a new goal if I make that goal by thanksgiving but if not, i will just keep trying but it's something to look towards and see if I can accomplish. :)

It was a good day today overall beside Isaac and Caleb getting into the paint AGAIN and he had so much on his hands that Isaac looked like he had white gloves on it was another mess to clean up.. I need to find another place for my paints as the shelf isn't good enough I guess.
They go outside as they always want to so I let them b/c then I can get stuff done and they are out of my hair. I have no idea why they want to play in the garage though. I'm always checking on them but checking on them sometimes is whew they are good or sometimes they are getting into something they shouldn't and today when checking on them, they were doing something they shouldn't..
I did my norm today though. Laundry, swept my floors, made dinner, cleaned up the kitchen, washed all the sheets off the beds and blankets and cleaned the bathroom and got on the treadmill and did my 30 minute workout. It's always a struggle to get on and do it though. I need to make that my priority and not my housework. I'm trying to let stuff go and this and that can wait but it's soo hard. I'm constantly wanting my house to look perfect.. Ok back to the treadmill. Today I didn't get on til 11:45am when I should be getting on it a lot earlier. I'm constantly finding something else to do around the house and push it back and of course Isaac and Caleb have to be in the bedroom while i'm on and it's quite caotic. I did an incline of 3.0 which the more of an incline the more calories you are going to burn... I'm not focusing the distance anymore even though I still like to look at it and see if can go farther and it makes me work harder to go farther but it's more about the calories being burned as the more you burn the more of a workout you're getting and more likely to lose the weight. Today I burned 330 calories in a walk/run exercise. I want to get to where I run more than I walk but for right now i'm even.. I'm power walking 10 mintues running 15 mins and then power walking the last 5 minutes and it was 2.40 miles if you were wanting to know. :) so I thought that was pretty good. Mondays will be my weigh-in as hopefully that will help me watch what I eat on the weekends. :) I will blog everyday but check back to see if i have lost anything next monday. :) Have a GREAT day!!!!

I can do EVERYTHING through Christ who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13